Winning is impossible

During current Hold'em session you were dealt 4558 hands and saw flop:

- a total of 642 out of 4558 (14%)
Pots won at showdown - 96 of 168 (57%)
Pots won without showdown - 287

Bankroll down to 143$. I played well the entire session, but I was never really able to win. When I gambled with nut flush draws I never hit. Everyone was hitting everything against me. Runner-runner. 1 outer. Draws. Eventually I ended the session when my KK ran into AA. I was not going to win today and I did not want to start losing like hell.

marcel2311 was the main guy who I noticed kept constantly giving me beats. I had the best by far in some of our bigger pots. I knew I was ahead and bet and raised accordingly. I like to get a lot in when I have the best. This made some pots swell up and he was usually able to hit the river and made bets out of position. The hands all felt like they were no good on the river but I ended up paying off. Every time. It sucked. He did not have to play well at all. Just call me with anything and on the river eventually hit the best.
He is an experienced player from Germany (pssst I am German too!), but was only a losing player until he joined the 1c/2c blinds. I respect his game. It is tough, but I think I would win heads up. I offered it but never got a reply.
One hand we played was strange. After someone limped UTG, he made it 8c to go. I had KK in position, usually I would reraise but I was irritated by the bigger raise. I called. UTG called too. The flop was something like J84. UTG checked, marcel bet big into the pot. I could have reraised but decided to call again and see how the action continues. UTG called as well. The turn was an 8. It paired the second pair on the board. The pot was about 75c by now. UTG and marcel checked. I needed to see if my KK was good and bet 45c. I thought that there was a chance that UTG might have flopped a set. He folded. After long consideration even marcel folded. I think he folded AA. I asked, he said 1010. He did not talk the whole time. He replies to when I told him what I put him on. He just said 1010. He needed me to believe my read was wrong. Donks will give you an answer like "No" or "who knows". He is not a donk, but I will win heads up. If you are better, I am determined to change that.